Friday, August 12, 2005

Where did it go?

I had lunch, well, sorta, with a friend, an ex-colleague who is based in Melaka. He had a meeting in KL and came up and on the spur of the moment called me out for lunch. I had already eaten, but I thought since I haven’t seen him in a month, oh well, what the heck.

He ate. I watched. We talked. The usual shit stuff we talk about, in our own special vernacular, which only we and a few others in my circle would appreciate. But then again, he is one of my circle.

Then we went jalan-jalan in 1U. And there as I enquired about his gf, he broke the news of the break-up. I nearly fell off the escalator!

This is the guy who went away to US to study for 3 years and still managed to maintain the relationship. But when he came back for work, it began to fall apart.

My personal inner worry is this – when and why does a relationship fall apart, in spite of having endured long distance?

It plagues my mind… this whole relationship break-up… I think I have a subconscious phobia of relationships… I’m afraid I’ve developed a fear of being in one…

Who’s to stop the other party from saying, I can’t find the love anymore.

"Where did it go?"

"I don’t know how it slowly dissipated… it was dying slowly, without me knowing… I only realized when it was totally gone… "


And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new